" Hate "

i HATE u so damn much...

please come back here before u fly 2 sabah..

lets lunch, diner, breakfst together!!!

i HATE u but i ........ you!

p/s; i love my mom! my mom birthday is around da corner!

" Gud Morning"

Good morning everyone..
today is tuesday..
what should n must i do for today..
labing!!
arghhh... shit...
im still in the fatigue mood..
my brain like a mechanical machine..
thingking bout psm tooo much..
im still waiting for the chemical (titania tertraisopropoxide)
if i dont have dis chemical i cnt proceed my research...
please someone donate me dis chemical..
please...
last nite i went 2 mcd..
with amoy n malia...
very long time we dont spent time together..
so we loitering last nite!
varied of stories came out from our mouths..
hope we can gather again next time...
owh yeah! forget...
i just arrived from kuantan yesterday evening..
i just brought only 2 dragon fruits from kuantan..
sold out da!
i had great time there with my cuzin syahir n batul..
syok seiyh...
barul secret me n syahir.. huhuhu..
btw liverpool only draw with arsenal last weekend..
shit!
i hope for da win..
but i had excelent time watched dis game..
coz i watched at coffee street! with my kazen's fren!
kaki bola gile babi!!..
k.. then...
mau pigi lab..
benci....

p/s; miss u sengal.. balik jumpe gua cepat!

"Leave For a While"

tomorrow going back 2 kuantan..
to send my atuk n ayah to their homeland..
tomorrow morning.. after daybreak..
hope can get up earlier tomorrow morning..
then sunday back 2 utm back coz...
on monday got labwork 2 be done..
hope at kuantan i can steel my ayah's dragon fruit..
then bring it back 2 johor..
huhu...
today im so damn fatigue..
ate panadol already..
still weak..
hope tomorow i get my power 2 drive 2 kuantan..
pray for me...
syahir, abg long..
wait 4 me....
i'll be there soon....

p/s; passported frens.. lets singapore!

"So Anxious"

i warbling the bach melody in the shower this morning coz last night im feeling so nervous and anxious without know where is the shit feeling comes from.. is it i miss someone? or i tooo much thinking bout my psm (to many things not done yet).. oh damn shit! i hate this kind of feeling.. i need someone to calm me down.. slap my cheeks, kiss my cheeks, my forehead, knead my hair, massage my head n my nape, hug me tightly, rub my chest, clutch and grip my hand.. can u be my someone rite now? really need someone.. im so anxious,, please calm me down.. only someone can do this..

p/s; i need 2 be strong as diamond..

"Tag From Yana"

Do you think you are hot?
No, coz aku gemok already.. makan xhenti.

Upload a favourite picture of you.

Why do you like that picture?

firstly sorie, sbb aku xde gambar solo.. ske gambar nie coz it was taken yesterday at oldtown.. so still fresh la lagi.. da crazyness of us.

When was the last time you ate pizza?

tyme stdy week dulu kot.. cnt remember

The last song you listen to?

Classical - Bach - Pachebel's Canon (Piano Solo)

What name you prefer beside yours?

alif kot.. sbb da terbiasa skung. dulu xske sbb cam kanak2.. coz only my family use dat name.

People to tag?

♥ Syafiq
♥ Melor
♥ Huda

♥ Faten

♥ Daniel

Who is number one?

anak suraji.. slalu ngn die. da bosan da. skung die ngah honeymoon...

Number three is having relationship with?

wuhuuu.. its complicated la..

Say something about number five?

da jumpe dua kali.. baru je kenal.. so far ok la!

How about number four?

bz saja ngn bf die...

And who is number two?

my sarawakian fren. xreti2 nak balik.

"The Gig"

• if xjadi pg kuantan.. akanku pegi these gigs...

21 december 2008.. OAG, Restrain, Laila's Lounge, Julie Goes Oversea.. City Plaza JB


20 december 2008.. Stadium Merdeka


Aku punye Gig sendiri.. vanue di bilik aku!

p/s; ready 2 be wet!

"New Wallboxer"

from da bottom side..

from da right side..

from da left side..

p/s; aku tampal sume barang yang aku ade kat sinie..

"All I Want In This Christmas Is You"

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a Cashier hand this little boy some money back. The boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old.

The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll.'

Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ''Granny,

are you sure I don't have enough money?''

The old lady replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.''

Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to.

'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas

She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.'

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry.

But he replied to me sadly. 'No, Santa Claus can't bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy

so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.'

His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God

very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.''

My heart nearly stopped.

The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.'

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture

with her so she won't forget me.'

'I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.'

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?''

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was

enough for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!'

Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy

this doll, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!'' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave

me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.''

'My mommy loves white roses.'

A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket.

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started.

I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied

by a young woman and a little girl.

The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on

the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.

I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young

woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother

and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine.

And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

p/s; i love da feeling of christmas, snowy, calm..

“selamat pengantin baru to kak anis n abg nordin”

sweet seiyh wedding nie.. mang aku blom penah jumpe la wedding gini.. plamin, khemah, makan,.. superb! credit 2 da family! budget besar... moga berbahagia ke anak cucu.. diorang sporting abis.. pengantin pon best la.. luv them!

p/s; great wedding I ever attend.. 5 stars.. really great.. I’ll beat u kak anis n abg nordin.. hope so.. adios!

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